"You don't buy me flowers, you don't buy me drinks, you don't drive me anywhere, making me insane. Maybe I need a wake up call, it seems you're too comfortable. Seems like I have to do wrong to get your attention. I think I have to cheat to keep your eyes on me. Maybe if I make you jealous you'll start to wake up...", sings Hayden Panettiere.

We walk on choices and thread on answers. That's how we, or at least I, because some people walk on money and thread on others, get by day-to-day. And each day brings a new terrain for the next. It's like 'Red Alert', the Command & Conquer game where you have to choose a colour and your enemies are all the rest? Your territory is as much as you walk and the path opens up to show what lies ahead. Being a cautious and extremely organized person...I would always walk the area around my nemesis, get a grip of what's around, strategize my GIs and army then charge. Gross. I sound like what army would say. Unfortunately for me, everyday is no Sims City or Red Alert. I say something, I pay. I regret, I suck it up and repeat, 'Life sucks.' Apt.

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You know when you convince yourself of something so surely but when the time comes, you get fickle yet again, but because you want to prove to yourself that you aren't fickle you therefore stick to your choice even though you realize there might be some possibility of making a mistake? So easy to feel, so many words to say. There are 2 people, or more, residing in my head. One is stubborn and the other, haven't gotten the name yet. If I regret the decision I just made, I will rip stubborn out and whack it obedient. You hear that,pest?

Soon I will know.