You know those boulders in life you have to shift away and rid it?they're heavy aren't they.i know,cause mine isn't budging.

i don't know what's wrong with me these few days.I think im being irritable and irritating at the same time.There isn't a really comprehensible answer to these sort of shenanigans,although many a times i wish there was.This is not the only time this year,there were so many boulders i had to push away this year,albeit discreetly in case the noise disturbs others around.I'm starting to sound like a construction worker.
Today in school i slept productively for about 1 hour at least and i dreamed i wasn't in school haha.You know sometimes when you're at some place but you dream you're in another,and then you wake up and reality's different?yeah same concept applied.
And the funny,no not funny it's depressing,thing is i had to wait 3 hours for a one hour training.how pathetic is it.I haven't been home earlier than 5 this month.not including the days i didn't go to school la.
And then i went for dinner with charong!We went to the thai express at siglap and i tell you although the place looks small and cramped and normal outside,when you walk in it's actually really nice.With the warm lighting and quaint elephant stone sculptures embedded into the wall..not bad.But the fascinating thing is we sat at that 2seater table for 2 and a half hours,eating and talking.You know i realised i can really talk when i feel,need,want to.It's like fun especially when you lose time to talk,and then realise omg it's so late!Tha's the best part.haha.Both of us spent the whole time talking bout superficiously deep things like atheism and religion and God.It's like our own workshop going on there.But it's really fun i tell you,i was born for this.And then the manager of thai express who was this burly huge malay man,he's so funny.Becasue we stayed in there for so long,when we came out he said," Eh mam,i thought you waiting for us to close?"
hahaha.and he had that cute,chubby look.
The long long talk really blew my mind and made me think more than i've thought for school in the past week.

Back to the boulder situation,i think i get affected by people easily.Not literally like in a sensitive to people's words kind of thing,more of like the mood of people i know around me really impacts mine too.When you're sad,ill more or less be too in a way,if you're happy and i'm sad ill still be cheered up.It's a domino thing,in a one sided kind of way.It's a positive relationship.
oh my,the works of humanity and econs getting conjoined?tragic.

i can't wait for the outing tmrw.I hope it'll be a bright and sunny day.I need it.Oh the weather affects me too.Okay like it doesn't to every other person.Still.

If you get me a pearl,
You can be my girl.
If you get me a ring,
You can be my King.
If you get me a phone,
You can sit my throne.
Until then,
return my hand.


love,love,love,love,love,
cheryl.